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Hiding Abuse Behind a Smile: The Unseen Cost of Coercive Control

By
Samara Knight
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To the outside world, it often looks like everything is fine. Survivors of abuse become experts at appearing put together—going to work, raising children, laughing at jokes. But behind that smile, behind the carefully curated mask, something darker is happening. Life with an abuser is often a daily act of survival, where your body is present, but your spirit is shrinking.

One survivor put it this way: “I was smiling on the outside but dying on the inside.”

It’s often living in an invisible war zone—the quiet, relentless trauma of life with an abuser, and the emotional toll it takes when you can’t let the world see how bad it really is.

Living Two Lives

When you’re in an abusive relationship, there are always two versions of you: the one the world sees, and the one who knows the truth.

At work, with friends, or around family, you might appear competent, cheerful, and composed. But inside the home, it’s a different reality entirely—one full of walking on eggshells, managing their moods, and shrinking your needs to keep the peace.

“Most people thought I was doing great—I smiled, I laughed, I joined in,” one survivor shared. “But behind closed doors, I was walking on eggshells every second. No one saw that version of my life.”

Another wrote, “We were living in big houses surrounded by all this stuff, but I was as miserable as sin.”

You become a master of performance—telling yourself that if you just keep smiling, maybe it will all get better.

The Pressure to Pretend

Many survivors keep up the façade because they don’t want to be judged or because their abuser has convinced them no one will believe them. They may also try to hide the truth because they’re afraid of what will happen if they speak up.

Some people stay silent because their abusers are charming in public—kind, generous, attentive. That public persona makes it even harder for a victim of abuse to speak the truth.

“He is skilled at hiding who he’s been to me,” one woman said. “Pretending to be a great husband in front of others. But once we’re alone again, everything is all MY fault.”

Another survivor recalled, “To everyone else, he was kind, helpful, funny, thoughtful, and considerate. He was none of those things at home.”

So survivors often stay quiet. They become good at hiding the abuse. And they suffer alone.

The Emotional Toll of Hiding Abuse

Pretending everything is okay takes a huge emotional toll. Suppressing your fear, pain, and rage wears you down. It can lead to anxiety, depression, brain fog, dissociation, and even physical illness.

“I withdrew. Pushed everyone away. I had no idea who or if I could trust. I went from an optimist who went out regularly to being a hermit,” one survivor shared.

Another said, “My ex husband was abusive in every way. In the end he almost killed me. But his verbal abuse and isolation were almost worse. When I ended up in the ICU, I had no one left to call.”

This is what the world doesn’t see: the loneliness, the hypervigilance, and the psychological numbness that comes from hiding abuse and having to “hold it together” for so long.

When Your Identity Disappears

Over time, life with an abuser can make you forget who you are. You lose your voice, your confidence, your dreams. You begin to doubt your thoughts, your memories, and even your worth.

One individual said, “It’s so subtle we don’t see it happening until one day we realize everything that made us who we are is gone. And it takes so long to get it all back.”

Another reflected on how coercive control stripped away their identity, saying, “When people asked what I liked to do, I’d hesitate and say, ‘Not sure.’ Because I didn’t know anymore.”

Abuse is not always loud. Sometimes it is silent eroding a life—day by day, piece by piece, until all that remains is the shell of a person.

Fear Behind the Smile

Fear often lies behind a victim’s smile. Fear of doing the wrong thing. Fear of what will happen when you get home. Fear that today will be the day they finally go too far.

“When my hands shook when his number popped up on my phone,” one woman wrote, “that’s when I knew something wasn’t right.”

Another said, “He would turn up unannounced when I was out for coffee with friends. He’d just sit there not talking. I stopped going out of embarrassment.”

For many, the smile becomes armor—a way to protect themselves from suspicion, pity, or worse, retaliation.

Why People Don’t See It

It’s easy for outsiders to miss the signs of abuse. Survivors are often high-functioning. They raise children, hold jobs, host dinner parties, and play many of the normal social roles. But none of that means they’re okay.

One survivor explained, “I never missed a day of work, packed school lunches, and smiled through every conversation. No one knew I was crying in the shower just to make it through the morning.”

Another shared, “I became the one who always checked in on others, offered help, made people laugh. It was easier to focus on everyone else than face what was happening at home.”

This ability to keep going—to perform normalcy while silently suffering—is exactly what makes the pain so easy to overlook and so hard to talk about.

Finding Your Way Back from Life with an Abuser

For many survivors, the first real shift doesn’t happen with leaving the relationship—it begins when they stop hiding the truth. After months or years of smiling through pain and downplaying what’s really happening, one of the most powerful things a person can do is speak the words out loud.

Coming out of the shadows means letting someone in. It might be a trusted friend, a family member, or a professional—someone who will simply listen without judgment. That first conversation, no matter how brief or broken it feels, is a declaration: This is real. This is happening. I need help.

Talking about the abuse can feel terrifying at first. But speaking honestly allows survivors to name what they’ve been through. It begins to break the spell of minimisation, self-blame, and confusion. When you hear your own story spoken aloud, it becomes harder to deny the reality of it—and easier to see why you deserve more.

The act of opening up doesn’t just connect you to others—it reconnects you to yourself. It’s a step toward freedom, toward visibility, and toward reclaiming the parts of you that have been buried under silence and survival.

No one should have to carry this alone. And no one should have to keep pretending. Speaking your truth is not just brave—it’s how the healing begins.

Featured Image: The fear and pain of life with an abuser is often hidden behind fake smiles. Source: pathdoc/ Adobe Stock

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

MEP’s Ex Jailed in Coercive Control Case Involving Lie Detector Threats

By
Samara Knight
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Irish MEP Kathleen Funchion has spoken publicly for the first time about the years of coercive control and harassment she endured at the hands of her former partner, Sean Tyrell, following his conviction and sentencing under Ireland’s Coco’s Law. Tyrell, a former county councillor, was jailed for four months with a further four-month term suspended for two years after pleading guilty to a sustained campaign of psychological abuse and threats.

The case, which included threats, reputational smears, and even demands for Ms Funchion to take a lie detector test to prove her fidelity, is being viewed as a landmark moment in raising awareness around coercive control in Ireland. Ms Funchion hopes her decision to go public will help other victims find the courage to seek help.

A Pattern of Control

The Irish Independent reports that Tyrell and Ms Funchion met in 2016 during her successful Dáil campaign, where Tyrell served as a volunteer. They later entered a romantic relationship and got engaged in 2017. Over the years, the relationship devolved into a subtle and escalating form of coercive control, with Tyrell demanding access to her phone, reading private messages, and persistently accusing her of infidelity.

In 2022, even after their separation, Tyrell escalated his behaviour by contacting a journalist with false allegations of domestic violence and financial misconduct. He sent screengrabs of this correspondence to Ms Funchion and threatened to release her name publicly unless she met a series of demands—including taking a lie detector test to prove her fidelity and arranging a meeting with Sinn Féin leader Mary Lou McDonald.

Tyrell was convicted under Section 4 of the Harassment, Harmful Communications and Related Offences Act 2020, more widely known as Coco’s Law. It’s called Coco’s Law in memory of Nicole “Coco” Fox Fenlon, a young woman from Ireland who tragically died by suicide in 2018 after being subjected to relentless online harassment and bullying.

The court heard how Tyrell’s actions caused serious emotional harm and distress. In handing down the sentence, Judge Cephas Power noted that Tyrell’s actions were deliberate and intended to cause distress.

In her victim impact statement, Ms Funchion explained how the abuse had left lasting effects on her ability to trust others, resulting in isolation and emotional strain. She described her life now as deeply affected by the psychological damage inflicted during the relationship.

Support and Speaking Out

Ms Funchion credited the Amber Women’s Refuge and the Protective Services Unit of the Gardaí for their vital role in supporting her recovery and pursuit of justice. She noted that they were professional, kind, and made her feel believed and safe during a time when she was doubting her own reality.

She advised those supporting victims of coercive control to be patient and non-judgmental, highlighting how difficult it can be to recognise and escape such situations. Rather than pressuring victims to leave, she emphasised the importance of simply listening and being there for them.

Ms Funchion also highlighted the fact that coercive control doesn’t always look like traditional abuse and can include emotional, financial, and digital manipulation.

A Call for Awareness

The case has sparked renewed discussion around coercive control in Ireland, where prosecution of non-physical abuse is still developing. Ms Funchion said she struggled with whether to speak out, but ultimately felt it was important to do so in order to help others recognise the signs and seek help.

One quote she shared captures the manipulation clearly: “No matter what I said, he was adamant that I was being unfaithful… I think that shows how it really gets into your head and you really do doubt yourself” [via Irish Examiner].

Reflecting on her experience, she added: “I do feel very strongly about that and I do feel that I was listened to.”

Her message to others enduring coercive control is clear: you are not alone, and what’s happening to you is not your fault. Help is out there, and healing is possible.

Featured image: Kathleen Funchion speaks out on coercive control. Source: Sinn Fein / Flickr.

What to Say to Abuse Survivors After They Leave

By
Samara Knight
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Leaving an abusive relationship is often seen as the conclusion of a painful chapter. But for many abuse survivors, what comes next can be even more disorienting. The aftermath of abuse often brings silence, confusion, and emotional turmoil. While outsiders may assume that the worst is over, survivors frequently find themselves navigating a new, lonely stage of healing.

In the absence of real understanding, knowing what to say to abuse survivors can make all the difference. A few sincere, supportive words can bring immense comfort. These are the messages survivors often needed most in the days, weeks, and months after they got out.

“You Did the Right Thing”

Those who leave abusive relationships often do so while carrying a heavy weight of fear and self-doubt. After enduring repeated messages that they were the problem, many survivors struggle to trust their own decision to leave.

“I needed someone to say, ‘You did the right thing,’” one survivor shared. “But instead, people said things like, ‘Sorry it didn’t work out’—as if I’d ended a normal relationship.”

Another said, “After everything he did, my mom asked if we could work it out—for the kids. I had to explain that he had already chosen drugs, cheating, and abuse over us.”

Even kind but misinformed responses can lead survivors to question themselves. But the reality is clear: leaving wasn’t the mistake. The toxic conditions that made leaving necessary were.

“It Was Never Your Fault”

This short sentence can be one of the most powerful things someone can say to an abuse survivor—yet it often goes unsaid.

“I wish someone had said, ‘It wasn’t your fault.’ Over and over again,” one woman wrote. “Instead, I got silence. Or worse, blame.”

Another remembered, “I was told I must have liked the abuse to have stayed so long. That hurt more than the abuse itself. That’s a wound I’m still healing from.”

Survivors often carry layers of shame—not just about the abuse itself, but about the time it took to leave. The truth is that abuse is never the survivor’s fault. What they need is not judgment, but continual reassurance that the blame lies solely with the abuser.

“I Believe You”

After being lied to, manipulated, and gaslit for years, survivors need their experiences validated. They need to hear that what they went through was real, and that someone believes them.

“I finally opened up about what I went through,” one survivor shared, “and the person I told said, ‘Are you sure it happened like that?’ I didn’t speak about it again for years.”

Another recalled, “When I reported my abuse, the police officer said, ‘You’re just making this up.’ He didn’t even investigate.”

Being dismissed retraumatizes survivors and reinforces the fear that no one will stand by them. Survivors should never have to prove their pain. Belief should be freely and firmly given.

“You Are Incredibly Brave”

Survivors don’t usually feel brave when they leave. Instead, they often feel afraid, overwhelmed, ashamed, and unsure. But walking away from abuse is an act of profound courage.

“I wish someone had said, ‘I’m proud of you. You’re doing great,’” one woman wrote. “Instead, I got questions. Judgment. Doubt.”

Another survivor reflected, “A friend told me, ‘What you did took guts.’ That stayed with me—it made me feel seen, like someone finally got how hard it really was.”

Even if survivors go back and leave again, or if healing is messy and nonlinear, the act of leaving remains a courageous step forward.

“It’s Okay to Have Mixed Feelings”

One of the most difficult parts of recovery is dealing with the complicated emotions that linger. Many survivors still feel affection, guilt, or longing for the person who hurt them, which can feel confusing or shameful.

“It would have helped to hear that it was okay to still love him,” one survivor said. “It didn’t mean I was going back. It just meant I was human.”

Another shared, “Some days I missed him and hated him at the same time—and I didn’t know what to do with that.”

Healing isn’t straight forward. Survivors deserve space to feel every emotion without being judged for it.

“You Don’t Have to Do This Alone”

The isolation survivors feel after leaving can be immense. Even though the relationship is over, the loneliness can deepen in the weeks that follow.

“I didn’t just lose my partner,” one survivor said. “I lost mutual friends, parts of my community, even my relationship with my own family.”

Another added, “So many people backed away. They didn’t know what to say, so they said nothing. And I felt like I was grieving alone.”

Those supporting survivors should continue to show up. Being present—with patience, not pressure—helps survivors feel less alone.

“Healing Will Take Time”

Many people assume that once someone leaves abuse, they should quickly move on and feel better. But that assumption ignores how long trauma lives in the body and mind.

One survivor shared, “My friend said to me, ‘Thank goodness that’s behind you now—you can start dating again.’ I felt completely unseen. I was still carrying so much trauma, and I hadn’t even begun to process what I’d been through.”

“It’s gonna take an ass-ton of time,” one woman said. “It’s a rollercoaster. Buckle up. But you’re gonna make it.”

Another added, “I didn’t want solutions. I wanted someone to sit with me in the dark and not try to fix it.”

Healing is a long, personal journey. Abuse survivors deserve time, space, and support as they work through the damage caused by what they endured.

Offering the Right Words to Abuse Survivors

What to say to abuse survivors matters more than most people realize. The wrong words can deepen shame and doubt, while the right ones can offer safety, clarity, and peace. When someone opens up about their story, take a breath before responding. Ask: what do they need most in this moment?

They need to know they aren’t broken. That their pain is valid. That healing is possible.

Above all, they need to hear this: They were hurt. They got out. They can heal. And they are not alone.

Featured Image: It may be difficult for others to know what to say to survivors, but there are some things people need to hear after leaving an abusive relationship. Source: Viacheslav Yakobchuk / Adobe Stock.

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

The Hidden Reality of Covert Abuse: How to Identify Silent Harm

By
Samara Knight
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When people picture abuse, they often think of shouting, slammed doors, bruises, or physical fights. Yet for many survivors, the deepest wounds come from something less visible—the kind of covert abuse that doesn’t leave scars but cuts just as deeply. Covert abuse rarely shows up in police files or emergency rooms. It’s quiet, gradual, and often noticed only by the one living it.

For survivors, the effects of covert abuse can be just as devastating—if not worse—because it’s incredibly difficult to pinpoint and even harder to describe to others.

Abuse That Disguises Itself

Covert abuse often hides behind excuses that seem reasonable and actions that appear normal. It might show up as concern, humor, or even a bad day. Yet underneath, it’s a calculated effort to control, gaslight, and dismantle someone’s perception of themselves.

As one survivor put it, “It’s not being told not to do something. It’s the clever manipulation of convincing you that you don’t want to, stripping you apart ‘til you don’t even know what you really like anymore.”

Another shared, “It’s the way you start doubting your own judgment because they make it all sound like it’s your fault, your sensitivity, your problem.”

Covert abuse moves silently, gradually eroding your confidence and distorting your sense of reality, until you barely recognize the person you’ve become.

Psychological Tactics Behind Covert Abuse

Covert abuse operates through psychological strategies that leave victims confused and filled with doubt. Gaslighting, withdrawal of affection, passive-aggressive remarks, and backhanded compliments are all part of the pattern.

One survivor recalled, “He would agree with a smile, knowing he’d never follow through. It was a slow, silent kind of cruelty—teaching me that my needs were just a joke he was in on.”

Another wrote, “He’d tell me I offered zero growth and taught him nothing. When I was praised by others, he called me grandiose. It was endless.”

The goal is not just dominance but to make the target doubt their value, abilities, and perception of events. Because covert abuse is often invisible to outsiders, it makes survivors feel even more isolated.

Two Faces: Public and Private

A major feature of covert abuse is the abuser’s ability to wear a different face in public. Many survivors describe how their abuser seemed charming, well-liked, or even revered outside the home, while being cold, cruel, and domineering behind closed doors.

“He was a true Jekyll and Hyde,” one woman shared. “In public, he was the loving father and devoted husband. Behind closed doors, he was cold, angry, and abusive.”

Another survivor echoed, “He was polite and funny around others, but at home, he’d say, ‘Why are you still here?’ I used to dread the sound of his key in the door.”

This public-private divide serves to protect the abuser’s reputation, making it even harder for survivors of covert abuse to be believed or supported.

Kindness Used as a Weapon

One of the most bewildering aspects of covert abuse is the way kindness is weaponized. Sporadic acts of love and generosity foster confusion, keeping survivors hooked on the hope that the “good version” of their abuser is the real one.

“He’d rage at me one day and act like nothing happened the next,” one survivor explained. “That’s what kept me hooked—the belief that maybe that kind version was the real him.”

Another said, “I kept thinking if I just communicated better, if I was more understanding, maybe it would stop. I thought I could fix it.”

The painful truth is, you cannot fix someone who is determined to erode your spirit in subtle, hidden ways.

Lasting Scars of Covert Abuse

Because covert abuse leaves no bruises or broken bones, many survivors carry the psychological wounds long after the relationship ends. They often battle distorted self-images and lingering doubts about whether the abuse even happened.

“I remember thinking, ‘Maybe it wasn’t that bad. Maybe I’m exaggerating,’” one woman wrote. “It makes you go back, thinking you were ridiculous—and the wheel resets.”

Another shared, “Even now, I sometimes wonder if I was the narcissist. That’s how much he messed with my head.”

This internal confusion is part of the long-term damage caused by covert abuse, making healing an even more complex and extended journey.

The Struggle to Find Support

Since covert abuse is subtle, survivors often struggle to get validation or support. Friends and family may dismiss their experiences with comments like “he never hit you” or “he seems so nice,” ignoring the emotional devastation underneath.

“When I tried to explain to a friend, they said, ‘All relationships have issues.’ I went home and cried for hours, wondering if maybe I really was overreacting.”

Another survivor wrote, “I feel like I’m crazy sometimes and it was all in my head, because of how others perceive him. I’d like just one person to tell me they saw that dark side so I know I’m not delusional.”

Without physical evidence, survivors of covert abuse often feel erased, and the invalidation they face only deepens their pain and sense of isolation.

Gaining the Language to Heal

For many survivors, true healing begins when they finally learn the terms that describe their experience. Discovering concepts like coercive control, emotional abuse, gaslighting, and trauma bonding allows them to piece together what happened.

“When I learned the meaning of trauma bond, all the pieces fell into place,” one woman said. “I was in shock for about two months.”

Another shared, “I started journaling online instead of eating when I was stressed. People started reading my posts and sent me quizzes. Every one of them said the same thing—my husband’s behavior was abusive. I was shocked.”

Understanding covert abuse and giving it a name is the first major step toward reclaiming your identity, your worth, and your peace of mind.

Covert abuse may not leave physical injuries, but its emotional impact can be devastating and enduring. It damages your ability to trust yourself, erodes your self-confidence, and reshapes your entire reality. Survivors of covert abuse carry invisible wounds that take time and care to heal. Acknowledging what happened isn’t weakness—it’s profound strength. If anything in this article resonates with you, know that your experience is valid, your story is important, and you are never alone.

Featured image: Recognizing covert abuse. Source:  Photographee.eu / Adobe Stock.

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

The Inner Dialogues of Survival: How Abuse Victims Cope with the Unthinkable

By
Samara Knight
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Abuse doesn’t just leave bruises—it reshapes the way survivors think. In order to make it through life under constant emotional threat, many victims develop internal narratives that help them minimize, justify, or endure the harm. These thoughts may feel like necessary survival strategies at the time, but later, they often become barriers to healing. Understanding how abuse victims cope requires looking at these beliefs not as flaws, but as tools that helped them survive when survival felt like the only option.

This is what it looks like inside the mind of someone trying to make sense of abuse. These thoughts may have provided temporary comfort, but over time, they can keep survivors stuck in patterns that no longer serve them.

“It’s Not That Bad”

A common way abuse victims cope is by downplaying their experience. Telling yourself that “it’s not that bad” becomes a way to endure the pain without fully facing its magnitude. If it feels manageable, maybe it won’t hurt as much. Maybe it will pass.

“I remember thinking (I still do), ‘Maybe it wasn’t that bad. Maybe I’m remembering it wrong. Maybe I’m exaggerating,’” one survivor shared. “It makes you go back thinking you were being ridiculous, and the wheel resets.”

Another said, “Too long. I kept thinking, ‘This is just the hard work of marriage,’ without realizing it was simply abuse.”

This minimization often mirrors what survivors hear from others—or from the abuser, who may label them as dramatic or overly sensitive. It’s a method of survival that can delay recognition of the full extent of the harm.

“If I Just Try Harder…”

One of the ways abuse victims cope is by focusing on self-blame. Instead of recognizing the harm as someone else’s responsibility, they try to fix themselves. Be more loving. Less emotional. More patient. The hope is that these changes will stop the abuse.

One survivor wrote, “For 30 years I kept thinking if I just did better or acted differently, it would change—until I realized this year it’s never going to change.”

Another echoed, “I used to think it was my fault. That I needed to be the bigger person and detach from my ego. That maybe when he told me I was grandiose, he was right.”

This form of coping offers a sense of control in an uncontrollable situation. But the focus on self-correction obscures the real issue: the abuse.

“They’re Not Always Like This”

Abuse often comes in waves—punctuated by apologies, affection, or rare moments of calm. This inconsistency is how abuse victims cope: by holding on to the “good times” and telling themselves the rest is temporary or not as important.

“That’s what made it so hard to leave,” one survivor said. “If they were horrible all the time, you wouldn’t stay. But it’s the intermittent reinforcement that keeps you stuck.”

Another shared, “We hang on to the crumbs of the nice parts, believing that’s their true self—and maybe they’ll improve.”

These glimpses of kindness make leaving harder. It’s easy to confuse brief warmth with genuine love, and to stay in hope that the “real” version of the person will reappear.

“They’re Just Stressed”

Another way abuse victims cope is by explaining away harmful behavior. Stress, trauma, addiction, or past hardships become the reasons behind the abuser’s cruelty. Shifting the blame can help survivors make sense of the chaos.

“He must have really been upset when he got fired from his job,” one survivor recalled someone saying to her—as if that justified the abuse.

Another wrote, “At first he played my heartstrings. Told me no one in his family loved him, that he was abused as a kid, suffered severe PTSD from the military. Then when his fake tears and victim mentality stopped working… he threatened to kill my parents.”

Compassion is a strength, but when it’s manipulated, it becomes a liability. In trying to understand their partner’s pain, survivors often overlook their own.

“I’m the One Who’s Broken”

Internalized blame is a powerful way abuse victims cope. Over time, many begin to believe the abuse is happening because something is wrong with them—that they’re too needy, too emotional, or just not enough.

“We completely rely on them,” one person shared. “Put all our trust in them, assuming they know best, while we make ourselves smaller… constantly wondering what is wrong with us.”

Another said, “I became a mess because the real me kept fighting from deep within. At least now he’s just a weaker voice in my head.”

These beliefs are often reinforced over time by manipulation, criticism, and isolation. They erode self-worth and make it harder to imagine life without the abuser.

“I Just Need to Be Stronger”

Endurance is often praised—but for abuse victims, strength can become a mask. The belief that you have to stay strong at all costs can prevent asking for help or acknowledging the reality of the abuse.

“I thought I was strong,” one survivor said. “I kept telling myself that my wife simply had some ‘issues’ that could be overcome.”

Another echoed, “I told myself I was just being too emotional. That I was making things worse by complaining. I thought being strong meant staying silent.”

Real strength isn’t staying in harm’s way—it’s recognizing the harm, and choosing something different.

Rewriting the Inner Narrative

These inner stories aren’t signs of weakness—they’re signs of survival. They helped abuse victims cope in unbearable situations. But once the threat has passed, they may stand in the way of healing.

With time, reflection, and support, survivors can learn to reframe these beliefs. They can begin to tell themselves, “It wasn’t my fault. It’s okay to feel what I feel. I’m not broken—I’m healing. I deserved better.”

Understanding how abuse victims cope sheds light on just how much strength it takes to endure, and how much courage it takes to unlearn those survival patterns and embrace a new story.

Featured image: How abuse victims cope. Source: wayhome.studio / Adobe Stock

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

Unseen Wounds: The Psychological Impact of Domestic Abuse

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Leaving an abusive partner is often misunderstood to be the end of the trauma. To outsiders, it may look like liberation—a clean slate, a fresh start. But for many survivors, walking away is just the beginning of a quieter, more personal struggle. The chaos may stop, but the psychological impact of abuse lingers, buried deep beneath the surface.

These internal wounds aren’t visible to others. They reside in the nervous system, shape identity, and influence how survivors engage with the world. The psychological impact of abuse doesn’t end with escape, it often intensifies in the aftermath.

Grieving the Future That Was Stolen

Many survivors describe a wave of grief after leaving. It’s not always about missing their partner, but for the life they thought they were building—the dreams that were slowly eroded. What hurts is the loss of the relationship they believed in.

“I grieved what I’d hoped my marriage would be and for my children who wouldn’t have the family they deserved,” one survivor shared.

“It’s common for people to believe that when you leave an abusive relationship, you feel nothing but relief. It’s not true. I felt overwhelming grief. I grieved the love that was never real.”

The psychological impact of abuse includes grieving a reality that never existed. Unlike typical breakups, survivors mourn an illusion and the life they built around it.

Shame That Lingers in the Silence

Even after leaving, shame often persists. It’s not shame for being abused—but for staying, for not seeing the red flags, for the slow erosion of boundaries that survivors blame themselves for.

“I let that thing into my life,” one person reflected. “I happily allowed it to take the wheel, to purchase a little peace. I gave it my soul. That’s something I have to live with.”

“I used to think it was my fault… that maybe when he told me I was grandiose, he was right. That I needed to communicate better, and if I just said things right, he’d understand.”

This self-blame is one of the most common and harmful psychological impacts of abuse. It can grow louder once the relationship ends and the reality sets in.

Doubting What Really Happened

Gaslighting doesn’t end when the abuse stops. Survivors often continue to second-guess themselves, wondering if it really was as bad as they remember. This lingering confusion is a hallmark of the psychological impact of abuse.

“I remember thinking (I still do), ‘Maybe it wasn’t that bad. Maybe I’m remembering it wrong. Maybe I’m exaggerating,’” one survivor shared. “It makes you go back thinking you were being ridiculous. And the wheel resets.”

“Years later, I still question if I was just too sensitive. If maybe it was all in my head. I just want someone to tell me they saw it too, so I know I’m not crazy.”

Without validation, survivors are left trapped in cycles of doubt that erode self-trust long after the abuser is gone.

When Their Voice Becomes Your Own

Long after escaping, many survivors still hear their abuser’s voice in their mind. The criticisms replay on a loop, shaping how they think about themselves. This internalised voice becomes one of the most damaging psychological impacts of abuse.

“I still hear him telling me I’ll fail,” one woman said. “That it’s pointless. A waste of time and money. That I’ll never finish anything.”

“He called me a waste of space, pathetic, a joke. Now I say those things to myself without even realizing it.”

Replacing this inner critic with a self-compassionate voice is a slow, ongoing process, and a vital part of healing from abuse.

Losing Yourself One Piece at a Time

Abuse gradually chips away at your identity. Survivors often describe leaving with no clear sense of self. That erosion of selfhood is one of the deepest psychological impacts of abuse.

“It’s so subtle we don’t see it happening,” one survivor explained. “Until one day we realize everything that made us who we were is gone. And it takes so long to get it all back.”

“I didn’t even know what kind of music I liked anymore. My whole personality had been shaped around trying not to make him angry.”

Rebuilding identity means rediscovering your own likes, wants, and values, often for the first time in years.

When Fear Becomes Your Baseline

The psychological impact of abuse often lives in the body. Long after physical safety is restored, the nervous system remains hypervigilant. Fear becomes automatic.

“When my hands shook as his number popped up on my phone—I knew,” one survivor said. “I was still terrified, even though I’d left.”

“All of your bearings are off, your cortisol is out of control, and you only find relief in sleep—except he would infiltrate my dreams.”

This is trauma, not overreaction. The body holds onto fear long after the threat is gone, which is why survivors often continue to feel unsafe.

Trauma Echoes in New Relationships

Even when survivors enter healthy relationships, the effects of abuse persist. This is one of the more painful psychological impacts of abuse—watching it follow you into places where it doesn’t belong.

“Even now, years later, I still hesitate when someone asks what I want to do,” one person said. “Because for so long, I wasn’t allowed to want anything.”

“I over-apologize. I flinch when someone raises their voice, even if they’re not angry at me. I hate that it still lives in my body.”

These aren’t flaws—they’re survival responses. Healing means learning how to feel safe in safe places.

The Nervous System Fallout of Complex Trauma

Many survivors develop complex PTSD (C-PTSD), a condition that affects body and mind. This diagnosis helps explain the deep psychological impact of abuse—and offers a path toward understanding and healing.

“I didn’t see it as traumatic until a recent boyfriend said, ‘I think you still have PTSD from your marriage,’” one survivor shared. “Then my therapist said it was probably complex PTSD. I was disbelieving—until I realized she was right.”

“When I got away from him, I realized over the years there had been so much emotional, verbal, and financial abuse… it explained why I was always so jumpy and exhausted.”

C-PTSD is a response to prolonged trauma. And naming it often brings relief.

Healing Isn’t Linear—And That’s Okay

There’s pressure on survivors to “move on” quickly. But healing from the psychological impact of abuse is not a straight line. It’s a gradual, nonlinear process that unfolds over time.

“Over 20 years of confusion,” one person wrote. “It took 8.5 years to open my eyes, another 2 years to leave, and even after leaving, I kept uncovering new layers of coercive control.”

“I left my marriage after 25 years not because I realized it was abuse, but because I knew something was wrong. It took a year after I left and started therapy to even put the word ‘abuse’ to it.”

There is no deadline for healing. Each step forward is a victory, even when it doesn’t feel like one.

Finding Strength in Clarity

The psychological impact of abuse may be invisible, but it leaves a lasting imprint. Yet within that pain is also a quiet kind of strength—the power to reclaim your story.

“Healing happens when we decide to honour ourselves. If I had waited for justice or accountability, I would never have healed.”

“I’ve forgiven myself for putting up with it, for falling for the trap,” another wrote. “The abuser will never receive my forgiveness. I feel nothing for them. No love, no hate. Nothing.”

That “nothing” is power. It’s clarity. And it marks the beginning of peace. Healing is not about becoming who you were before—it’s about becoming someone wiser, stronger, and more whole.

Featured image: Psychological impact of abuse. Source: Dragana Gordic / Adobe Stock

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

“If I Just Tried Harder”: How Self-Blame in Abusive Relationships Keeps Victims Trapped

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Samara Knight
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Self-blame in abusive relationships often lingers long after the relationship ends. It doesn’t begin with obvious mistreatment—it starts with subtle doubts. You wonder if you’re too sensitive, too needy, or if you’re expecting too much. Slowly, it becomes easier to believe that any unhappiness must be your fault. You hold back feelings, avoid conflict, and decide that love must mean accepting less. You stop challenging the harm and instead try to become easier to love. That if you were just calmer, kinder, less emotional, more forgiving, more accommodating, then maybe things would go back to the way they were.

The process is subtle and unfolds over time. And by the time the abuse is obvious, self-blame has already taken root. You’re left disconnected from yourself and uncertain of your own reality.

One survivor shared how she used to think it was her fault. “I thought I needed to be the bigger person and detach from my ego. When he told me I was grandiose, I believed him. I thought I needed to communicate better—if I just said things right, he’d understand, and we’d get back to how we used to be.” Self-blame in abusive relationships is often a key part of how control is maintained.

The Exhaustion of Constantly Trying to Be Enough

Survivors often describe the exhausting, daily effort to shape themselves into someone who might finally be loved right. One woman said it felt like “doing cartwheels backwards to please him.” She tried everything—being thinner, quieter, more ‘domestic’—all while holding down a full-time job. But it was never enough. He always found a reason to blame her.

Another survivor shared that she kept repeating the same thought: “If I only stopped pressing his buttons, he wouldn’t have to have a go at me.” That level of hyper-awareness, driven by self-blame in abusive relationships, turns perfection into a form of survival.

Others spoke of walking on eggshells, trying to phrase everything just right. “I thought if I could stay calm, avoid certain topics, be less ‘difficult’—then he’d finally understand me. But the goalposts always moved.”

When You’re Told You’re Too Much

A common thread in survivor stories is the message—spoken or implied—that you are too much: too emotional, too dramatic. One woman remembered being told she was “too intense” and “too sensitive.” Over time, she began to believe it and shrank herself, thinking that’s what love required.

Another survivor said, “Everything is fine as long as I don’t bring anything up or express myself.” She learned that her needs made her the problem. Self-blame in abusive relationships teaches survivors to silence themselves to keep the peace.

Gaslighting: Doubting Your Reality

Gaslighting is one of the most damaging aspects of emotional abuse. It leads survivors to distrust their own perceptions. One woman said, “I remember thinking—maybe it wasn’t that bad. Maybe I’m remembering it wrong. Maybe I’m exaggerating.” That kind of second-guessing is the direct result of gaslighting and a driver of self-blame.

Another shared how her partner turned everything around on her. “He told me I was controlling. That I was overreacting. And I believed him. I actually apologized for things he did to me.” Gaslighting turns abuse into something the survivor thinks they caused.

Often, the survivor becomes consumed with fixing things. One woman said, “I thought I was the problem. So I stayed and tried harder.” That instinct to repair what’s broken is weaponized against them.

When Shame Lingers After You Leave

Even after ending the relationship, self-blame doesn’t just disappear. Many survivors feel ashamed for staying as long as they did. One woman admitted, “I called it a ‘toxic relationship’ rather than naming it for what it was. I still blamed myself.”

Another reflected on the years she lost to hoping things would change. “This year, I finally realized it was never going to change—and I had to move on for my own well-being.” This type of awakening is common, but often accompanied by painful regret.

One woman described how thoroughly she had lost herself. “I thought if I just kept the peace, everything would be okay. So I handed over my choices, my voice, even my sense of reality—just to avoid another outburst. Looking back, I don’t know where I went.” This kind of emotional erasure is rooted in long-term self-blame in abusive relationships.

How Abusers Exploit Empathy

Abusers often prey on the empathy of their partners. Survivors are typically deeply introspective, willing to own their flaws and work on the relationship. One woman said, “They convince you that their bad behavior is a reaction to your flaws. If you want them to change, you have to be better. It’s always your fault.”

Another survivor explained that she didn’t even realize the manipulation until much later. “He used to make fun of me in front of his friends, and I thought maybe I just couldn’t take a joke. I blamed myself.”

Self-blame in abusive relationships often intensifies because survivors deeply trust their partners. One woman said, “We put all our trust in them, assuming they know best. We make ourselves smaller, constantly wondering what’s wrong with us.”

Finding Your Way Back to the Truth

Recovering from self-blame takes time, support, and often a lot of unlearning. One survivor explained, “It’s hard to admit that someone you loved—someone you trusted—was manipulating you. It’s easier to think you caused it. That you could have prevented it. But that’s just not how it works.”

Another woman said she didn’t even recognize how afraid she was until much later. “It started subtly. He didn’t get physical until much later. But long before that, the psychological abuse convinced me I was the problem.”

For some, the voice of the abuser continues long after they leave. “At least now,” one survivor shared, “his voice is just a weaker one in my head. I know who I am again.”

The road to healing is rarely straightforward. There will be hard days and setbacks. But every time you speak the truth, reclaim your story, or release the blame you were never meant to carry, you take another step toward freedom.

If you’ve ever believed it was your fault, please know this: You were never the cause of the abuse. You were the one who gave too much, tried too hard, and held on with hope. That’s not weakness. That’s courage.

And the moment you stop blaming yourself is the moment you begin taking your power back.

Featured image: Self-blame in abusive relationships. Source: Shisu_ka / Adobe Stock.

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

Healing from Domestic Abuse: Insights from Survivors

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Samara Knight
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Breaking free from domestic abuse is just the beginning of the recovery process. The emotional and psychological wounds left behind can take years to heal. Many survivors have shared their personal experiences, revealing key strategies that helped them move forward. Their stories highlight the importance of education, therapy, self-care, rebuilding connections, and engaging in activities that bring fulfillment.

Understanding Abuse: The Impact of Psychoeducation

Gaining knowledge about abusive behavior is a crucial part of healing from domestic abuse. Survivors often find that learning about coercive control, emotional manipulation, and trauma responses brings validation and clarity.

“For me, it has been education and freedom,” said one survivor. “Learning every little thing about what happened, including how I reacted, along with knowing I am free and alive. I also spent three years constantly helping others in the same situation.”

Another survivor recalled how understanding the psychology of abusers made a difference. “Coming at it from a more clinical and less emotional place helped. It was less painful and taught me a lot. It gave me information to help spot, deal with, and avoid these types in the future.”

The Transformative Power of Therapy

Therapy is an invaluable tool in the process of healing from domestic abuse. It offers a safe space to unpack trauma, validate experiences, and develop healthy coping strategies.

One survivor shared, “At first, I was terrified to talk about what happened, but my therapist helped me recognize the patterns of abuse and the way they had shaped my self-esteem. She introduced me to EMDR, which helped process the flashbacks, and we worked on setting boundaries—something I had never been allowed to do before. Therapy gave me the confidence to reclaim my life.”

Another found healing through various outlets. “Therapy, prayer, solitude, writing. I process verbally, and once I realized the toxic bath in which I had marinated for 37 years, I needed to purge the internalized toxins. Writing it all out and reading it to myself: this really happened, it was really awful, and I’m still here—that was validation.”

Rebuilding Connections and Finding Support

Domestic abuse isolates its victims, making it essential to reconnect with safe and understanding people. Finding a support system, especially among fellow survivors, can be a turning point in recovery.

“Survivor friends have been so important to me while in the thick of the abuse and as I come out of it,” one woman shared. “I’m so thankful for people who share their stories and give encouragement along the way. This road can be so lonely, and knowing people who understand makes all the difference!”

Another survivor found comfort in mentorship. “I had a lot of work that I enjoyed. And a new friend who became a mentor,” she recalled. “He was the first man who told me unequivocally that I was very smart and had interesting ideas, and he’d listen to me for hours as we talked. What a boon he was after the marriage I had!”

Releasing Suppressed Emotions

Survivors often discover they have repressed emotions for years. A crucial part of healing from domestic abuse is learning how to express these feelings in healthy ways.

“Screaming along to angry songs in the car was very cathartic,” said one survivor. “After the hurt comes rage—something I was never safe to express while in the abusive relationship. I was afraid I’d stay angry forever, but once I let myself feel those feelings, they eventually subsided.”

Another survivor found an unconventional way to reconnect with her emotions. “I was emotionally frozen for years. I didn’t cry, even when I wanted to,” she shared. “Watching sad movies helped unlock all that built-up emotion. It was like I had to teach myself how to cry again, how to feel things deeply instead of just pushing everything away.”

Finding Joy Through Hobbies and Activities

Engaging in creative or physical activities can be a powerful way for survivors to reclaim joy and purpose after abuse.

One survivor turned to painting. “I started painting, even though I had never done it before. There was something freeing about putting color on a canvas with no rules or expectations. It became my way of processing emotions I couldn’t put into words, and over time, it helped me rebuild my sense of self.”

Another survivor found healing in movement. “Yoga and mindful time in the outdoors helped me find myself—that inner light that was darkened after years with a manipulative, emotionally abusive narcissist.”

Prioritizing Self-Care and Personal Freedom

Healing from domestic abuse requires survivors to prioritize their own well-being. This includes self-care, boundary-setting, and reclaiming independence.

“Going to church, connecting with the women at my church, prayer, Bible study at work, volunteering, getting a dog and a fish, cooking food he never wanted me to, having groceries delivered, nature, therapy, books, staying away from him, and maintaining very low, written-only contact for the kids… basically being free,” said one survivor about reclaiming her life.

Another survivor found empowerment in small daily rituals. “I started making small self-care rituals a priority—things I never thought I deserved before. Taking long baths, buying myself fresh flowers, even just sitting in the sun with a book. These small things helped me feel human again after years of being treated like I didn’t matter.”

Rebuilding Life and Looking Toward the Future

One of the most empowering steps survivors take is rebuilding their lives through education, career goals, and new opportunities.

“I poured my energy into going after everything he didn’t want me to have,” said one survivor. “The first thing he took from me was my education. I got all that back and then some.”

Another found strength in learning. “Study and work. I was filled with shame and self-doubt. Studying gave me back my capability, and work continues to build my pride. Both gave me options to reconnect with people and create a new community for myself.”

Embracing Self-Worth and Confidence

Healing from domestic abuse involves rediscovering self-worth. Abuse often erodes confidence, making self-acceptance a crucial part of recovery.

“Realizing and accepting that I was abused helps you see similar patterns in people you meet going forward,” one survivor explained. “Even if you didn’t think you mattered before, you’ll know that you ALWAYS matter, because you’ve taken back control over your life.”

Another survivor shared, “For years, I blamed myself for everything that happened. I thought if I had just been better—more loving, more patient, more understanding—things would have been different. It took time, but I finally realized that I was never the problem. Learning to accept myself, flaws and all, was the biggest act of defiance against everything he made me believe about myself.”

Moving Forward with Strength and Freedom

For many survivors, healing from domestic abuse means not just surviving but thriving. They reclaim their happiness, independence, and sense of self.

“The best revenge is living a good life and leveling up so much that the abusive ex or family member is now below your league,” one survivor declared.

Another woman put it simply: “Move so far ahead of them that they remain far behind you.”

Healing from domestic abuse is a journey with highs and lows, but survivors prove that it is possible to build a fulfilling life. Through learning, growth, and self-discovery, they transform their pain into strength and reclaim the freedom they always deserved.

Featured image: Healing from abuse. Source: kegfire / Adobe Stock.

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

Early Warning Signs of Violence: Recognizing Escalation Before It’s Too Late

By
Samara Knight
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Violence rarely happens without warning. Before an abuser physically harms you, they often reveal their intentions through their actions. They might punch a wall before they punch you. They may hurl objects before throwing you. They could kick a pet before kicking you. These behaviors are not accidental, nor are they simply a sign of a bad temper. They are clear warning signs of violence.

Survivors often reflect on the moments before the abuse turned physical—when the warning signs were there, but they didn’t yet recognize them. Perhaps you’ve noticed these signs, or maybe you’re seeing them now. Trust your instincts. Pay attention to what they are showing you.

How Violence Builds Over Time

Before physical violence begins, abusers often push boundaries in other ways. It can start with intimidation, damaging property, or harming animals. These behaviors serve two purposes: to instill fear, and to test what they can get away with.

One survivor recalled, “He’d clench his fists and bite his finger, then shake his hand. Before that, he’d scream at me on the phone. I knew to behave when he’d do this.”

Another survivor shared, “There was a hole in his parents’ wall for about 30 years. No one patched it. They hung a picture over it. They’d repaired so many others they just got tired of doing it, and his dad said it was up to him to repair it. Until he finally hit me, I was scared of the threat of it.”

At first, these acts might seem minor—slamming a door, breaking a dish, punching a wall. But they are not simply displays of anger. They are calculated efforts to intimidate and control.

Believe Them When They Show You Who They Are

Abusers don’t always begin with direct violence. Before they physically harm someone, they may reveal their violent tendencies in more subtle ways:

  • Saying things like, “I could hit something right now!”
  • Slamming or breaking objects
  • Punching walls or flipping over furniture
  • Handling a pet aggressively or intentionally causing harm
  • Blocking doorways to keep you from leaving
  • “Playfully” hitting or pinching—but harder than necessary
  • Pretending to carry out a violent act, such as mimicking strangling
  • Pushing or shoving you, even in routine situations

One survivor described, “I tried to walk away so many times, and he would physically stop me. One time I tried to run from him into the bathroom, and he caught me and locked me inside with him. Another time he ‘stalked’ me, looming over me and advancing until he had me backed into a corner. The look in his eyes and the pure calculated threat in his movements made it scarier than any of the times he actually laid hands on me. If only I could have just walked away.”

Another survivor recalled, “He used to push me if he thought I was in his way—while cooking, while walking past him, even while I was driving if I bent down to pick up my bag. At first, I thought he was just impatient, but then I realized it was always about control.”

Destruction of Property: A Warning of What’s to Come

When an abuser begins destroying objects, it’s rarely just out of frustration—it’s a demonstration of power, a message that they can break more than just things.

One survivor shared, “Punching holes in the wall, slamming doors off the hinges, breaking and smashing stuff… then outright telling me he would have members of my family abducted and murdered. I knew then that I had to get out.”

Another survivor described how it escalated over time: “He broke more of mine and the kids’ things than I can count. Then he’d come with the ‘sincere’ apologies when I confronted him about it. But the next time he got angry, he’d do it all over again.”

When They Hurt Animals, They May Hurt You Next

Many abusers start their violence with those who cannot defend themselves—pets, small animals, or even children. Pet abuse is a clear warning signs of violence.

One survivor shared, “He had killed my two rabbits but made two separate excuses—one ‘died’ and the other ‘went missing’ while he watched them when I was in class. There were a lot of holes in the walls in every place we lived.”

Another survivor recalled, “He kicked a family dog so hard they thought he broke its ribs. He showed no emotion. That should have been enough for me to leave.”

Physical Restraint Is a Form of Abuse

Many victims experience being physically restrained before experiencing outright violence. If someone blocks your way, pins you down, or stops you from leaving a room, this is abuse—not just a warning sign.

One survivor explained, “Physically restraining me from leaving the house. I told him then that he was one step away from being a wife-beater, but in actual fact, physically restraining someone is also assault.”

Another survivor described, “His eyes would turn from blue to black, his face would turn red, and he would puff his chest out. Then he would start blocking my exit routes with his body, following me from room to room, yelling as I tried to just get away from him.”

The Predictable Pattern of Escalation

Violence is not random. It follows a clear, predictable pattern, often beginning with verbal and emotional abuse before progressing to physical harm.  Many survivors report that the emotional wounds inflicted by an abuser’s words were just as damaging—if not worse—than the physical violence that followed. The cycle of abuse typically unfolds as follows:

  1. Verbal and Emotional Abuse – Insults, humiliation, gaslighting, belittling, or degrading comments designed to erode your self-esteem and make you doubt yourself.
  2. Intimidation – Yelling, slamming doors, breaking things, punching walls, or using body language to instill fear.
  3. Control – Monitoring your movements, limiting access to money, preventing you from leaving, or tracking your phone and online activity.
  4. Threats – Explicitly stating a desire to hurt you, kill someone, kill themselves, or harm a pet. This may also include threats to take away children or destroy things you care about.
  5. Physical Acts – Pushing, grabbing, “playful” hitting that is too rough, harming pets, or restraining you physically.
  6. Direct Violence – The first slap, punch, or kick.

One survivor recalled, “At first, it was just yelling—loud enough to make me flinch. Then he started slamming doors so hard the walls shook. Next, he began breaking things—my favorite mug, a picture frame of my family. The first time he grabbed my wrist, he laughed it off like it was nothing. But it wasn’t nothing. A few weeks later, he shoved me so hard I hit the wall. The night he finally hit me, I realized every moment before had been leading to this.”

Another survivor shared, “The last straw was him cornering me and my three-month-old baby and telling me how he fantasized about killing my parents and how he would do it. That was the moment I knew I had to leave. He is deceased now. My daughter and I are safe and happy.”

Your Safety Comes First—Trust the Warning Signs

If you feel unsafe, there is a reason. If they intimidate you, harm pets, break things, or prevent you from leaving, these are warning signs of violence—and they should not be ignored.

A dog will always bark before it bites.

If you see these signs, believe them. Seek help. Make a plan. You deserve to be safe.

Featured image: Warning signs of violence escalation. Source: Marina / Adobe Stock

* Quotes are drawn from survivor experiences shared publicly on the Shadows of Control Facebook and Twitter pages and have been lightly edited for spelling, grammar, or clarity.

Man Jailed for Coercive Control Forced Partner to Wear Doorbell Camera

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Samara Knight
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A Dublin man has been sentenced to five years in prison for coercive control and repeated assaults on his former partner, whom he forced to carry a doorbell camera at all times so he could monitor her every move. The case, heard in an Irish court, has been described as a harrowing example of coercive control, highlighting the extreme measures abusers use to dominate their victims.

The Irish Times reports that the 41-year-old, who cannot be named to protect the identity of the children involved, pleaded guilty to one count of coercive control and three counts of assault causing harm. His campaign of abuse, which took place between 2017 and 2020, left his partner in constant fear for her life.

A Campaign of Coercion and Violence

The Circuit Court in Ireland heard that the man exerted complete dominance over his partner, isolating her from her family, taking her social welfare payments, and depriving her of a phone to control her communication. He installed a house alarm but withheld the code from her, ensuring she could not leave the house undetected.

One of the most chilling aspects of his coercion was the use of a doorbell camera, which he forced her to carry at all times. Whenever he rang the doorbell, she had to answer immediately, displaying both her hands and her surroundings to prove she was alone. He used this surveillance method to ensure she was not “entertaining” anyone.

Detective Sergeant Nicola Duffy told the court that the victim was subjected to near-daily beatings towards the end of their relationship. The severity of the abuse was evident in the victim’s impact statement, where she described her children’s growing fear and that they eventually stopped asking why she was bruised.

She also recalled being told by her young son’s teacher that “he expressed fear his mammy would be killed by the man.”

Escaping a Life of Fear

The woman recounted her desperate attempts to escape the abusive relationship. On one occasion, she tried to flee with her children, taking a taxi to the post office to collect her welfare payment and leave for good. However, her abuser was waiting for her outside, dragging her back home.

She eventually succeeded in escaping after he assaulted her while she was pregnant with their fourth child. Fleeing to her parents’ house, she arrived with nothing—not even enough money to pay for the taxi.

When she reported him to the Gardaí (Irish police), investigators conducted extensive interviews to build a case. A subsequent search of the man’s home uncovered her blood on walls, floors, curtains, and picture frames, stark evidence of the sustained violence she endured.

Control Beyond the Relationship

Despite his conviction, the woman expressed frustration at the Irish legal system’s failure to link the family and criminal courts, as he was granted access to their two children even after his abuse was reported.

“He should not be allowed access to the children,” she told the court.

Many domestic abuse survivors in Ireland and beyond have voiced similar concerns—that abusers use child custody arrangements as a way to maintain control over their victims, prolonging the cycle of manipulation and fear.

International Attention on Coercive Control

The case has reignited discussions on coercive control, a form of domestic abuse recognized in Irish law since 2019 but still not widely understood or effectively prosecuted in many countries.

Coercive control refers to a pattern of behavior aimed at stripping a victim of their independence and instilling fear, and can occur without physical violence. In this case, the combination of financial control, surveillance, and repeated assaults demonstrated how such abuse escalates when left unchecked.

Judge Martin Nolan emphasized the seriousness of the case, stating:

“There is a pattern of physical violence, a pattern of verbal violence, a pattern of totally controlling her, a pattern of assaulting her and a pattern of humiliating and ridiculing her” [via Breaking News].

He acknowledged that the woman would suffer long-term effects from the abuse, reinforcing the devastating impact of coercive control on survivors.

A Long-Overdue Sentence

Despite the gravity of his crimes, the defendant received a five-year prison sentence—a decision some have criticized as too lenient, given the extent of the violence.

Judge Nolan originally set the headline sentence at eight years but reduced it to five, considering mitigating factors such as the man’s guilty plea and claims that he is now drug-free.

The defense argued that both the defendant and his partner had struggled with substance abuse following a miscarriage, using alcohol and drugs as a way to “numb themselves.” However, domestic violence experts warn that substance use does not justify or excuse abuse, nor should it be a mitigating factor in sentencing.

The court also heard that the man had worked intermittently as a scaffolder and was now caring for a relative. Several character references, including from former partners, were submitted on his behalf, though their relevance to his crimes was questioned by domestic violence advocates.

A System That Still Fails Victims

While the conviction is a step toward justice, this case has highlighted gaps in the Irish legal system when it comes to protecting victims of domestic abuse. The victim’s continued battle for safety, particularly regarding her abuser’s access to their children, raises critical concerns about the intersection of family and criminal law.

Featured image: Man jailed for coercive control forced partner to wear doorbell camera. Source: Pannee / Adobe Stock.

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